Al Anon is a big reminder of what I want to forget. I do wrestle with shear hatred for him due to his lies and deceit, not alcoholism. Otherwise I have no negative emotions towards him and even wanted to remarry him until 6 months ago. He blew it and he said that was all he wanted for his life....me back. He sure got off track. He never got drunk unless we were on the outs but this time it was his choice to leave me behind. And God did a million things to save me. Finally, the 4th OVI did it. He's going to jail for awhile. We were supposed to meet up that day for a "conversation". He could not face me. I knew he was drinking again but no one else did. Too bad he decided to get behind the wheel drunk that day instead.