Colleen, why do I feel most days I was meant to be with my ex? The one I married and spent 29 years with. I look back with regret. I'm with a man that I feel safe with and I'm attracted to but I've never had fireworks after 6 months. I'll always consider my divorce to be orchestrated by Satan himself. Isn't this unrealistic? He is gone. I wrestle with my feelings for the new man who I found after 8 years of dating. He's a wonderful guy. I feel guilty. I'm torn. My story doesn't fit into yours 😕