Do you wonder Lisa if the future you thought was coming would have been worse than ripping off the bandaid when your life imploded? I try to think right now is better than what I would have experienced had my cozy little life stayed the same. Sometimes it helps.
Looking at pictures…. That’s torture for many of us. I’m hard put to recall the last time I was with my family and felt that “holiday” feeling. Traditions did not get passed on. You have an excellent way of coping. Get outside and enjoy the beauty. You deserve a life of love, laughter, and holiday pictures! New ones. It’s not over, just evolving a bit. You ARE more than a grandmother!!