God, Jesus, did not have a place of worship in a building where everyone got together once a week to be kind to one another and not judge. You can lay low for as long as you need, knowing God has your back. You have been through way too much, Mandy. One hit after another. A church is just a building, and parishioners are just people. Many want to suck the life right out of you. So lay low and relax. Communicate with the Lord on your terms and level, and tell everyone else you are on a "break"!