He hurt me by drinking, but I forgave him because he stayed good to me. Then, I hurt him by wanting a divorce, but he continued to love me; when I decided to return that love, he left me. It seems we cannot get on the same page at the same time. I believe God has a huge role in our cat-and-mouse game. I think He is telling me it is not the best for us to be together, but I don't give in or give up. I don't listen to God. However, that does not change God's mind! He knows all and will continue sending me signs until I eventually see the light. In the meantime, I torture myself. You see things more maturely and reasonably.