Here's my downfall, Iva. I have an unrealistic fear of being murdered. It's true. I have had this fear since I was 12 and my aunt gave me the book, "In Cold Blood" to read. Even though I leave a bedroom window open because I like the sounds of the night I have a loaded gun right next to me. The rest of my house is locked up like Fort Knox. Fear is a terrible thing to rule you and I let it.

When it comes to this fear I have no common sense at all. Just because the stats are slim it will happen to me it has to happen to someone so why not me?