Hey, Taylor (of course I made it to the end) you have written so much in a short amount of time it can carry you for a while. I have not caught up with your extensive output of articles in the past few months so don't worry about taking a break. You have to take care of yourself because you are sounding very hopeless. Please get some support. And maybe not from these "friends" with the wisdom (or not) about depression. You of all people know what you need but you also know it's not an easy road to travel by yourself. My heart is with you and what you are going through, my friend.