Hi. I appreciate hearing from someone who has been there, although I'm very sorry for you. One of the worst things is those 10 years between 2003 and 2103 that she was this amazing mother as well as one of my best friends. She's the type of daughter that keeps her mouth shut and can keep a secret.....when she's not using. Those 10 years actually had me believing she was done. That pull of drugs is very strong for her. It took a lot for her to abandon that family she had. I don't talk much. I let her talk. No one else just listens to her. I hope your situation keeps getting better with your grandchildren. Thanks for opening your heart and bringing up things hard to want to recall.