Holly I’m not comparing my divorce to your situation at all. I cannot imagine what that’s like. But, the loneliness I can identify with. Before he started to drink my husband treated me like I hung the moon. The alcohol killed my love and trust and I will always wonder what I could have done differently to help him. Anyway, I won’t say you’ll never have that again but it’s unlikely. My husband always told me I was “the One” and that is how you and your husband Sound.. You can’t replace that “one”. It’s tough but a new person in your life takes a really open heart and mind. I have not developed that in 7 years. Maybe I never will. But, you are younger and I hope you do.