I can sure identify with this. Every time I plan an event, I am a bundle of nerves, wondering how I can face rejection if no one shows up. It happened to me once when a "friend" gave me a baby shower, and only 3-4 women showed up. One gave me a gift from her and another "friend" that was not there of a USED car seat. It was terrible and I went home and cried my heart out. Later she told me she found most of the invitations under the front seat mat of her car! She never sent them. What a great friend she wasn't. She eventually dumped her husband and ran off with her tennis instructor, and I never saw her again—no great loss. I will never forget that event and how much it hurt even if it wasn't an actual rejection; it felt like one at the time. Those kinds of things leave scars, as you know.