I can't do it anymore. And the two best were Christians, and one went to church with me and held my hand....then told me about his sex partner. The other hated his dead wife so much that I could not take it. He was verbally abusive in emails he sent me after, and I had to block him on everything. He knew where I lived since I let him pick me up several times. They both had it all. Great date planners, money in the bank, beautiful homes, and loved the Lord. Tall, in decent shape, on and on. Why? That's what I asked myself when the end came. Oh, one lied about smoking, too.