I can't understand why it's so hard. I went several years not giving a shit about him. Why this nostalgia is eating me up, I have no idea. Our son just texted me and said he was sorry I got the shitty end of the stick when it came to men. WTF? That should not be me. I can love big time, be faithful, and I'm easy to get along with. Where is my Prince Charming? I have a chance for a relationship with a friend of my brothers I have been helping with a medical issue. Our friendship turned romantic the day before he left for his home in Florida a week ago, but I am supposed to go down to his timeshare for New Years. He got me a plane ticket. I wanted to go, but I feel like all his texts now are about romance and sex, and I have not had sex with anyone but my ex for the last 37 years. Our phone calls are just about norm al life. Maybe he just likes to text sensual stuff? I'm scared and also don't want to be used. I am more messed up now than I was before.

You have great self control and fortunately did not inherit that gene from your mom. I am thankful I did not get the alcohol gene.My ex did. From his mom.