I don’t have any words to say. I’m at a loss. I’m sorry you had this in your life. I do know the feeling of that late night call and the loneliness it brings. I know the feeling of being the one say STOP the useless life saving measures. But I will never pretend to know how you feel. I’m glad you’ve found some comfort in writing what’s on your heart. It gives some peace to others as well as yourself.