I had that fear for six years after my divorce but I still loved my husband, and he wanted desperately to reunite. My fear was he would relapse, and I would be such a fool to have jumped back into that abyss. Finally, when I let go of my fear and even apologized to him for putting him off so long, he left me! He had a girlfriend. Then, he relapsed! Was that a sign from God I was right all along? I am still hurting though.

Your fear is well understood by me. But, I really want a life partner and I believe he's out there and I will know when I meet him. That's my dream anyway!