I know I made the right decision because, for six years post-divorce, he wanted to reconcile and remarry. I never wanted that because why would I jump back into that world? We hung out together quite a bit, but I never once thought of sleeping with him (he did spend the night sometimes, but he just held me, which was heavenly). We also took a week's vacation and slept together, and I was not desiring him like I always used to. I knew if I had sex with him, that would mean we were back together, and I didn't want that. So, I confused myself when I fell apart after he left a few years ago. What was I thinking all that time?