I know I only have been once, and that's the guy who wanted to get remarried a few months back and then suddenly turns up "engaged." I will believe it when I see it, but it fits into his life much better to be with her than me. He can manipulate her. I know him so well and am on top of shit. I'm taking trips to Africa, Egypt, and the Amazon, and he doesn't even own a passport anymore and probably can't get one with his felony charge, either. We are socioeconomically unsuited. He doesn't have a dime, will owe many fines and taxes, and has a 2013 truck that might be worth something. He may as well get rid of it (he still owes it) since he can't drive for three years. I am still looking good for my age, and he looks to be 100 right now (in mug shots). I am 5'6" and 136 lbs, and he's 5"7", 142 pounds but probably less with eating jail food. I never liked small guys. But I think about him every morning the minute I wake up and every night before I go to bed. We had really been in love, and he waited on me hand and foot and did amazing things for me. I didn't give him the attention he craved for the years we've been back together (I was always afraid he'd relapse), and she gave him attention. From the minute he left me he had nothing but shitty luck. Lost his job, started drinking again (she never knew), and now his 4th DUI. From the outside looking in, I'm lucky I dodged a bullet by not remarrying him. But no one knows how I feel inside but me.