I know, Pam. I'm glad I wrote this because it helps me to see what's really going on. But, a friend since we were 15 is hard to say goodbye to. I stopped telling her anything bad about my life because I would feel terrible when I came home after seeing her. That's not really a friend. People change. When her life became secure with her new husband she was elevated to a higher level than me. That's what I think happened.

Thanks for helping me ponder this a little more deeply.