I said this to my husband when he was injured or made mistakes, but the drinking I could not handle. So, you see why I feel bad and still think I love him? I let him down by not sticking with him during his alcoholism (to this day).. Some days I can't believe I actually divorced him. I swore I never would. I live in such guilt. I was going to be able to make up for it and reunite with him. Then it blew up. I am a fool at times, but I like taking care of loved ones. Just not drunk loved ones. You got as much out of your service as Jay and Cinderbell 🙂❤️