I think I'm the only one who can't wait to go to bed at night. The most peaceful relaxed time of my day. Even though I can't fall asleep until 3 AM. My bed is a safe place. Then, morning comes and there's no way I want to get up. I called 2 places for counseling today and they both have their "quota" of patients on Medicare so don't take that insurance. Can you believe it? It's hard to get help when you're down and out. A lot of older people are needing counseling. I hope you're doing better and have conquered your struggle somewhat.