I think since he had been sober a year and had the interlock device and plates removed from his truck, I was more hopeful. The kids were all hopeful. Now, we are all disappointed, and I am done. It had to be this serious for me to wake up because I know what you mean. It's a precarious life dancing around an alcoholic who always lies. I know I don't deserve that life. Readers here on Medium have helped a lot!