I think you have read some of my crazy dating stories from meeting men online and also my stories about reuniting with my ex. They all fell apart and sent me into a terrible depression last Fall. I lost 25 pounds (I am trying not to gain back) and started on meds, including Xanax, for total meltdowns. It's been seven years now. I've been divorced and had one relationship, if you can call it that, for five weeks. He dumped me when I wouldn't sleep with him so that's what it was all about. Now, I am doing better, have great faith in God, and know he will send me the man I belong with for the rest of my life. I am a 68-year-old grandma, too, but I divorced when I was 61 and felt much younger then.