I was the same way a few years ago when my ex stabbed me in the back. The one person I thought would always be on my side. I believed him when he said he adored me and would wait until I felt comfortable marrying him again. Thank God I didn’t make that huge mistake! But, all I could do was write about him and my sadness and depression. I stopped writing all together because Medium readers had to be getting sick of my self pity. You write much more eloquently then me. It keeps me interested 😊