I wondered who would pick up on that? I often hated/hate my parents (even though they are gone) for the decisions they made for me that road mapped my life so far from my dreams. Like all relationships, they did well for me until I was 1 and they totally screwed me over. The fuck up they made of my life turned around and they kicked me when I was down... I never really got over that. My daughter will tell you they enabled her and she was bolder and more disobedient to me because they told her I messed up her life. They got on a roll to where my sister called me a piss poor mother in front of my kids after my mom tricked me into coming to her house to help her wrap Xmas gifts! She had my sister waiting for me to berate me. Rat finks! Then my dad called a meeting about MY daughter in which her father was not even coming nor did they ask him to. They always adored him and he was NEVER responsible for my daughter or her problems and she knew it. No, they invited me, my husband (sort of), and my sister and her husband. I called her dad and said he needed to be there. There my dad looked right at me, not her father, and said my daughter was a "throw away child". Did I throw her away? Not a chance. Her dad did. I've said from the beginning they all took ownership of her until she became wayward (my fault). I said I thought I was the "throw away child" since they didn't listen to me when I got pregnant and did not want to get married. I wanted to add give my child up for adoption but my daughter was at the table too and that would have reinforced the throwaway child crap. However once she told me she wanted to abort my grandaughter when she found out she was pregnant I was able to tell her my story in depth. By then she had been an addict for over 10 years. Fortunately she kept my grandaghter and got clean, married, had my grandson and stayed clean 10 years. I thought we were all good but it blew up and back she went. Just the tip of the iceberg here. YES, I hated my parents quite often and often I dissed my husband in favor of them over the years. I have no idea why he wants me back because my family treated him like garbage, lied about him, and too much to tell.

I am so sorry for this rant...