It was not what I wanted but it was not her fault. My parents are the ones that destroyed me and then her. I suppose they could not have predicted what they did. One time my dad yelled at me saying my daughter was a throwaway child. I told him I was the throwaway child and because of that, she was hurt. They enabled her so much that she blamed me for allowing her to date that high school boyfriend! That shocked me when she said that. Looking back we both see it but what is done is done. Sometimes I imagine her life had she been raised in an adoptive family by 2 stable people and what she could be accomplishing today. That's dumb but I do it anyway!