Kiki, I will not be any solace. My big black bear is looming over my head, heart, and body; so heavy and hard for over a month now, and I am physically sick from it. I have lost 8lbs in 6 weeks. I have no appetite because my stomach is in constant knots. Nausea. And no one wants to listen to me anymore. They see me as a fool for what had happened to make me feel so sad. I can't talk without crying about it anyway. It's misery times one million. You are not alone, but what good does it do to say that to you when you feel the same?