Mishel. I am sorry you took it this way. When I said actors I meant the happy face they put on for other people while they are dying inside. I did not mean it in any negative way at all. In fact, the actor part was part of the pain these people suffer because they are trying so hard to cushion the blow on those they love and care for. I can correct my comment so it does not sound negative if you would like. I respect your story and see how you could take this in a negative way. I myself have put on that "cheerful, my life is great" face when I wanted to die.