Most everyone I know thinks Veterinarians have lots of money. And good retirements. This is the first I see that is not necessarily true. You know how old I am, and 56 is young. Yet, retirement is a ways off for you, and you already feel so much strain and stress. What state are you in, if you dont mind my asking? Your story has made me very sad for you, and thinking when you euthanize an animal, you must think how much better that is than to suffer... mentally or physically. Society has no idea what jobs in the medical field entail. You cannot get behind lest you drown.