My friends and family grew tired of my whining—especially my kids. I had to get a grip and keep it to myself. My PCP gave me 10 Xanax a month to cope for six months. They helped a lot because I cried until my eyes swelled shut! It was the absolute and final end to my marriage and my husband. I had to grieve because I never did before. I knew he was always in the background waiting for me.