No, Erin, I would not wish to not have her because she gave me 3 of the best grandkids ever. However if you read any articles I have written about her she has been in and out of drug addiction for the past 28 years. There’s just such a huge background to the whole situation. Start with “my daughter has been found and she is alive”. You will see what I mean. Sometimes I think she wishes she had not been born herself.