Right before his DUI, he emailed me and said he missed our whole family and me. We were making arrangements to meet for a conversation. He was supposedly engaged to some woman then, but she knew nothing about my existence. And, unlike me, she had no idea he was drinking again. He was trying to lead a double life. I'd says he connected me with the happiest times in his life, and his life fell apart as soon as he left me. It's a crapshoot. Should I consider going back with him or try to move on? The big problem is I have found NO ONE that can hold a candle to him in my heart. But no one else in my life except my kids will think I have brain cells.