Saying no is hard for me, and saying yes is equally horrific.

I've lived this repeatedly for o many years. She went to Grandma, who always gave her the money against all my advising, teaching, begging, pleading, and telling her it was like putting a gun in her hand. To no avail. Saying no is hard but when you picture what the results could be, it makes it a little easier. I am sorry for your heartache, and I know how bad it is.