Such a privilege indeed! I am sobbing. This hits home so very hard except I was the one that wanted the divorce. He became an alcoholic after 27 years and after 29 I did not know how to cope. 6 years and a lot of Al-Anon later I may not have given up although he's relapsed and relapsed, there would still be a warm body that I knew from top to bottom next to me in my huge bed that I occupy only a sliver of. Martha, my heart aches for you because it does not get better. I'm sorry. Maybe you will fare better than me but it does not sound like you are equipped to "MOVE ON" as I have heard until I want to puke. 🤢🤢 MOVE ON to what? Another man? Seriously?