Thanks, Demeter. I really appreciate your advice and kindness.

I don't think you want to be alone.

You are absolutely right about this. My ex got out of jail on Tuesday, and as far as I know, moved in with his girlfriend/fiancé (maybe even his wife now?) I am more than ever trying to move on and stay sane. I WILL be careful. I know #2 is OUT now. See my addendum to the story I added tonight. I will see #1 tomorrow and get a better feel for the situation. Loving God is his best asset, but we need to talk about that. Thank you again. I respect everyone's opinion here, and no one seems to think either guy is right for me.

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