That had to be a terrible, confusing time for you. I'm sure you didn't want to hurt anyone. It's so hard to be 100% sure of the decisions we make, and when we think we are, we find out we were wrong anyway. I feel like I'm disrespecting the kind man I am dating because, deep inside, I feel I still love my ex. But he is gone. I think. He never said he didn't love me. I'm too old for this, though! I have no excuse for being so foolish. You had the reasoning of a young girl and not a mature adult. You followed your heart in 2 directions. I am curious how you started the letter correspondence affair with Jason while married to Mike?