The worst is that this time last year, he was begging to get remarried, and I was just not sure. If I marry again, I want it to be forever, and of course, I would love to be back with the man I was married to for 29 years. But would he stay sober, which caused our divorce in the first place? This woman came along and started going to his house on Sunday mornings for Bible "fellowship" (just the 2 of them) instead of the local study group. I am sure he invited her. Those ladies in that group also knew and must have at least considered it odd. In August, he told me goodbye for her. I didn't know she existed until my son told me a month later. I thought he was just mad at me. Anyway, he decided our vows and the desire to be together were important and returned in October, but then he relapsed into alcohol. She knew nothing about him seeing me through that whole time. He said he left me to heal (she was going to heal him?), but instead, he got sicker. (DUI #4 in December). I have left it to God because why would I want that lying, backstabbing, cheat back in my life? Why do I think of him at all? Only God knows.