Ugh....this is hard to read. I'm getting too old to look for that sex dynamo when my ex is great at it and wants to get back together. It's just that other things are missing. Are we just expecting too much? I wish I knew. You've had it bad though. I see why you like Thomas. He makes you feel beautiful, desirable, and hot. What a quandry. I'm feeling it along with you! I want you to have it ALL.