Unfortunately, we are often just "thrown" into change with no way to have prepared for it and no help in sight. It takes years to recover from that. Sometimes we never do. My mother never recovered from my dad passing away so quickly. I asked her if they ever talked about what to do if one died. She said no. I could not believe it. I'm glad you have a good therapist. I'm trying to find one and they are all booked up now!