Yes, I meant different tests, and I remember thinking that when I wrote it. I didn't spell check too well, altho I have Grammarly. . I appreciate your concern, but I don't think I have strokes. I'm depressed and sad about my daughters and not having anyone to talk to about them. I wish their dad were not dead. I started seeing a counselor last week and will see her again next week. Maybe if I talk this out with her, she can help me. I am at the borderline of just letting go of my girls and not trying to see or talk to any of them anymore. They drag me down mentally and emotionally. But I fear losing them too. And I need more sleep. I never went to bed the other night; I just stayed up 30+ hours in a row and took a few short naps. I cannot sleep. I ran into my middle daughter tonight, and she was cordial but mentioned some things to my friends that I could hear about things she has done that we usually do together. She does that. Subtle meanness. I know she wanted me to hear. IDK. I know I'm not going to an ER or a doctor about this. Maybe a psychiatrist!