You are finding your way. And you don't have to look back in a few years as you age and say, "That's it?" Nope. You can take whatever trips you want now. You can see and do whatever you want. It's a freedom you earned. And you are obviously smart, beautiful, and a great mother and grandmother (minus that one mean daughter and her controlling husband she will hate someday). I admire you. And you made a lovely bride. Many of us don't recognize that girl in the wedding dress anymore. I guess she was supposed to live happily ever after in some imaginary world.