You certainly aren't alone. I made smoking my number one dealbreaker on dating sites and also told the guys on the first date that same thing. They denied smoking. But, I'll be darned several of them were smokers and I had to break it off!
Closet smokers?
My daughter who smokes said "mom, if a smoker cuts down from 2 packs a day to one they call themselves a non smoker".
What? That makes any sense at all?
My ex told me he didn't smoke when I met him. On our honeymoon he said he was going to quit smoking. On our honeymoon?? Thanks honey!
How dumb was I that we dated for a year and I couldn't tell?? He covered it up so well.
That was 1987 and he's still smoking but, "trying to quit".😂🙄
I pray you make it Iva. But I see how hard it must be.